Ireland
Ok. I feel much better today. I’m not sure if I just would have woken up feeling better, or if it’s because I was awoken by the phone w/ my mom on the other end telling me that she and I are GOING TO IRELAND for a week in September all expenses paid!
WheeeeEEEEEEEEEEE!
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See, now I have something to look FORWARD to. I think that brings up my mood a bit. Maybe I would have woken up feeling better today anyway after a good night’s sleep. I don’t often stay depressed.
Wow. Ireland. M & I were hoping to go to Europe this year and now I get to go for free! What it is, is that a relative of mine gets tons of free trips and he decided to give this one to my mom, and she and I are best friends, so she wants me to go. M is going to try to get tickets for the same time so we can enjoy it together, so we’ll see how that goes.
Having something to look forward to is so important, so exciting. I mean, even in daily life. I think that’s one of the problems w/ my life. Life is REALLY good, but I have nothing to look forward to. I have the house I always wanted, I have the job I always wanted (working for myself doing what I love), I have the Binkie-Love I always wanted. I don’t want kids and I don’t miss not having that to look forward to. I don’t have much to aspire to. I had no trips planned (tons of “we should go here” tentaive plan ideas, but no set plans).
I don’t know. I don’t really have the secret to avoiding depression. I just know that I’m happiest when I have something to look forward to. A visit from family, a trip, a work-project, etc.
Wow, so…. yeah. Ireland. In September. I think what I’ll do is start a seperate travel-blog for that so that I only have to update one blog during that week. I have this, my main blog. But I also have a super-toned-down version of it at another website for family. See, people like my in-laws or uncles or other family who don’t know me as well as they could or should, might not understand it if they came upon this blog and found caustic venomous rants filled with the F word. This is my place to vent and be my true inner self. Even those who come here regularly would find that if they met me in real life that I DON’T scream and curse and rant all the time in 3D. Lewis Black isn’t ranting all the time. Only on stage or on The Daily Show. This is my outlet. So if an in-law or uncle or cousin found this, they’d think “wow, she’s fucked up!” and look at me funny. Or even be afraid of me. But that’s not necessary, because this is just where I express myself. Not everyone is a walking version of their art. If I did one “art” project that was spreading turds on a canvas and then shelacking it and spray painting obscenities on top if it, would people think that I play with sh*t and scream curse words ALL the time? No, probably not. But I’ve seen people have their blogs discovered by bosses, clients, in-laws, etc. and the reactions were not good. Anyway, where else could I go and tell you all stories about being literally LOCKED in the back seat of a moving vehical and having to breathe FART because the driver of the rental car didn’t know how to unlock the power windows? Huh? What would I ever do without this blog? 
So, rather than have to update two blogs + a moblog while on this trip, I may start a seperate blog, either at blogger or under a new domain, just for the Ireland trip. I kinda wanted to do a similar thing for my photography too because every time I add new photos, I have to tell two seperate blogs and that gets real old. But I don’t want to point my relatives here. Sometimes I get tired of having to update two blogs. (The ‘family’ blog is just a few infrequent posts here and there keeping family up to date on me, my photography, etc.). Oh well, not decided yet. Maybe I could put a new blog in my gallery folder which has a domain alias, so that when family goes to it they see the domain name they started at, and you guys see laserblog.com. Hmmm. I’ll have to think on it.
I plan to take a million photos on this trip. What a dream for a photo nut! 