I hate this
I feel sick. Now that the wakes and funeral are over, I feel like I’m nausious w/ sadness. What makes it worse is seeing so many family members, especially cousins my age whom I have not seen in many years but would have LIKED to. I hate that nobody tries to stay in touch. I feel so shut out from the rest of my family. Also sitting w/ cousins from Pittsburgh and talking about memories from living there, it even makes me miss living in Pitssburgh, and of course my Uncle (who died), who when we all lived in Pittsburgh together, was like my dad. I hate this.